papa

papa feels powerless:

Law of Attraction

"Everyone that’s in a power struggle, has cut themselves off from their true power.

The leverage is in alignment, (with your Inner Being or God, Source Energy).

You can join the ranks of the masses who are not thinking about that kind of empowerment, who are really just fighting it out with each other, but

They are really a weak bunch, trying to prove who is the most powerful.

Everyone who is fighting that battle is comparatively really weak.  

It’s why they get so mean, because they really

Feel powerless

Because they’re working against the true nature of the Universe. 

 

No one can overpower me because my connection, my power is just between me and my

Inner Being, between me and God.  It doesn’t have anything to do with anybody else."   

  Driving from the  Bryan, OH Amtrak station to Austin Road, mateo and I talked about what we wanted.  He said he wanted to visit with papa today, spend the night on Austin Rd, maybe at papa's or maybe with me at the farm house, then leave together with me tomorrow, Tuesday back to Muckle Rd.  Mateo said he wanted to come back to spend a long time with papa in the future.  I agreed and said ok, good.  He was clear and easy about it.  He was looking forward to spending time with his cousin Isaac and his friend James back up north by Muckle Road.  

    I told mateo I just wanted to get things clear with him before we talked with papa.  I shared that I was nervous about papa writing a note and taping it to the door again, telling me to return to Muckle Road by myself and we could talk later.  That's what papa did the day mateo and I were meant to get on the train to go to NY.  Miguel wrote a note and taped it to the door of his house, telling me that he and mateo went for a walk in the woods and I "should go to NY by myself, and we could talk upon my return".  So I told mateo that in case papa tries to keep him here, telling me to go on by myself, I wanted to be clear about what mateo wanted to do so I could support him in pursuing his own desires, and not be "taken for a walk in the woods" with a note telling his mama to go on by herself.

Mateo seemed to understand my concern and said, "I won't do that again mama".  I told him thank you and also that he, mateo, had done nothing wrong.  His papa wrote the note.  His papa taped it to the door.  His papa took him on a walk in the woods while his mama was left looking at a piece of paper that said "Go to New York by yourself.  We can talk when you get back."  I told mateo he's just a kid and the adults should be able to work this all out.  

So the plan was, Mateo visit with his papa Monday and Tuesday, then mateo and Kari leave Austin Road together on Tuesday and return to Muckle Road.  

I explained this plan slowly and clearly to miguel upon our arrival, calmly, after they had hugged and had plenty of time to greet each other.  

miguel started talking about, "well, you just had him for 3 weeks", "he'll stay here tonight and then we can talk tomorrow about what's going to happen".

I told mateo that papa was not accepting the plan and that I was scared he would try to keep mateo again with another note taped to the door, so it was best for us to just leave now.  Mateo got in the car, miguel started opening car doors, I tried to block miguel from touching the vehicle, which is not mine, I am borrowing it from a good friend.  I tried to get in the car and miguel opened the passenger door and pulled my backpack out onto the ground, he reached for my purse, he had his hand on the door.  I crawled over the passenger seat and leaned down and grabbed my backpack, miguel caught hold of the handle of the bag with his left hand and punched me in the face with his right hand, closed fist.  Not as hard as he has hit me in the past.  I got my bag back in the car and miguel kept pressure on the passenger door, keeping it open.  I heard mateo say "stop it papa" and miguel said "I am stopping.  She's getting physical with me". I started screaming as loud as I could and he let go of the vehicle and backed away.  I started the car and backed out of the driveway in a safe, controlled manner.  

Mateo said "I told papa to stop and he didn't stop and he said he was stopping".

I'm glad that's over.